Julius Wade from Pierre, South Dakota, cannot stop fucking his Pink Dynamite Sex Toys and this is what he wrote on his blog recently:-
Here is the deal guys. I relapsed last night and I am so tired of trying for over 15.5 years now. I have decided that if I relapse ever again, I will pass the ownership of the server to one of existing leaders here and leave.
If I relapse ever again, I will stop caring about fapping or not fapping. I will start working out like crazy everyday to get fit, find a girl for myself, get married and get into some business that won’t demand me being a celibate (no long hours, not tons of creativity required) as I know my limits with an active sex life.
But If I don’t relapse ever again, which I will definitely try my best to, I will stay a celibate my entire life and use my extraordinary energy, drive and passion to reach the top as I know my potential when I am practicing ‘no lust celibacy’; it is far higher than my sex drive.
But if I relapse ever again, I am done with trying to be a celibate forever.
I was sleep deprived yesterday, like only slept 3 hours in 36 hours, whenever that happens, I get these crazy boners that won’t go away for hours and also my brain wasn’t functioning right, then I had a little argument with my parents. Then I did the same mistake again that always leads me to a relapse, i.e. taking my phone with me to the bed and I relapsed multiple times.
Whatever be the case now, one relapse and I am done. There are no excuses anymore. I am so sick and tired of it.
I know how bad it is but I still do it nonetheless.
I don’t want to live and die as another married normie and I shall try my best to never relapse again.
I want kids but no I don’t want to marry. I respect the institution of monogamous marriage but it is not for me. But I will still do it if I ever relapse again because it is better than being a wanker or a whoremonger.Julius Wade, A South Dakotan Blogger